Complicated

I'm weird. hahahahaa...

I know my friends are all busy.
I know they don't only have me as friends in their life.
hmmm...

I know they need to take care of their studies.
I know they have responsibilities.
I know they may not have time anymore.
I know they're busy.

I know. OwO

But yea.. hahahahahha..
Guess that things won't always be the same.
Guess that people will still put others first instead of you.
Guess that you might not be that as important as it was before.

I know. O.O

Studies.
Exams.
Different group of gangs.
Assignments

You can't balance them if you don't know how to manage them.

I know. ^^

Money.
Transport.
Time.

Most important thing.
But they'll make time if they're willing to.

I know. =)

Parents permission.

Because it's mostly them.

I know and understand. =D

Different goals, different importance.

I know. =3

Just wanna say, I love you guys till the max <3

So it's ok. I believe one day, maybe, that I'll work my way up back to your number one spot.

YOSHHHHHHHHH.. don't feel down, don't feel sad.
They don't mean it. They love me too.
It's just busy right now.

I'll do anything to make it stay that way. Just hope that I'll stop breaking down. Lol.
Yoshhhhhh..

Talking with Inner part 1

So...
xD I have this habit of debating with myself..
There's me, Inner ( who usually debates with me all the time ) and Dark Inner ( who sometimes just appear out of no where and curse someone )

Nope, it's not a split personality.

hahahaha.. then when I was studying for my exam.. I got super bored and thought of this scenes..
It's not that funny.. it's just made out of boredom. But i just feel like sharing.
xP


" Organic Chem.! why did you do this to my Memory.! " - Brain

" Brain is now crying because you ruin memory... " - Inner

" So now, we want to call upon a full on war towards Organic Chem to launch their hatred and REVENGE. " -  Synapses

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" Please Brain, go slap yourself. " - Inner

" What.?! How dare you, you insolent brat.! " - Brain

" I'm not a brat.! I'm Inner.! " - Inner

" And that, just proved my point. " - Brain

" Drop dead and die. All of you.. " - Dark Inner.

" D.I, go back to your rightful cage and stop coming out. " - Brain

" I take no orders from no one.! " - Dark Inner.

" Oh D.I ~~ Synapses are gonna cling onto you if you don't ~ " - Inner

" Tsk... Hn... "

" Yay~ Brain, We Did It~~ " - Inner

" Shut up, Brat. "

__________________________________________________________________________________" Can't... hold.. on any longer... " - Memory

" Memory, Stay Strong.!! " - Brain

" Brain... please tell Inner that... even till now, she's still annoying.. " - Memory

" HEY.! If you weren't about to die, I would soooo kick your ass. " - Inner



" Hn.. and burn his body, buried it deep down and torture him again. " - Dark Inner.

" Dark~~ you shouldn't be here... " - Inner

" Hmph.. "

" Memory, we will avenge for you.! " - Brain

 " Brain, thank---- " 


" NOOOOOOO, SYNAPSES.! WE CALL ON A FULL WAR WITH ORGANIC CHEM.! " -Brain



Dum dum dum dum dudududududududu~

the end.?

Like-Love Relationships.

My mother... I'm seriously speechless with her..
In primary school when I told her I got a crush, she told me it's just a puppy love.
But it lasted for 3 years until I was rejected. >.>

In secondary, she kept hinting and telling me that only to date in College.
Secondary guys all still studying , you won't have fun etc...
all kinds of stuff.

Now in college, i told her i met a not bad looking guy..
she told me don't think much about it because when in degree got more guys...
haishh.. mum... =-=

so when I'm degree I'm guessing she'll ask me to wait until I'm working.. >.>

That's that... now next.

I think I kinda ... yeaaaa...
But I know it won't work out.
So I decide to end it.

TADAAAAAA.. sometimes I feel fine... sometimes I don't....
Not sure if it's really the feeling I think it is.
Or it's just some imaginary feelings.

That's all. Cause I really don't know if I'm... yea...

I think my mum suspects that I'm secretly dating.
Cause she became really interested in what I'm doing, where, who and so on... unlike last time.

Haish.. whatever la..

Onii-chan [s]

Soooo... I don't really get along with my brothers since young...
But I only remember the times where my 2nd bro will play imaginary games with me...
Or I'll watch both my brothers to play games. I like watching them play..

But somehow when I'm in primary school.
Everything just change.

I looked back to the old photo[s] from the photo albums...
We look so happy, so content with each other..
Their arms around me, protecting me.
Their hands holding mine, making sure I won't be lost.

But somehow everything change...
I was in bad relationship with my 2nd brother, and he became really scary and doesn't talk a lot and his temper is bad.
I was never really that close with my big brother, but he always look friendly but it's always like a stranger politeness.

Until now..
It's better than last time... much better actually..
I'm selfish.
I wanted a relationship with my brothers like any normal people do.
Can't change that now I guess..

But at least I know they care right.?
At least now 2nd bro will talk to me once in a while, big bro too.
Big bro buys stuff for me too,
there's pencil case in primary school, box of pen from singapore in secondary sch and he just bought me a bracelet and necklace...

Now that's my brothers...
Maybe if they chg one day, I'll probably not used to it.?
It's ok.

Both my brothers are kind and caring in their own way.

Big bro, last time he would occasionally tease me so that I won't feel left out. He buy me gifts.

2nd bro, helped me out when our parents were arguing so that I won't feel so afraid. He gave me a souvenir this year..

I love them both <3
I'm still glad that they're my brothers even though we're not normal and close.

Love you gor gor[s] <3