Blood Test

So... As the title said, it's about a blood test. My friends and I went to do a blood test for the Hepatitis B... It's held in the school.

Asked my mum's permission and the RM 16, wanted to go on Thursday, but my friends totally forgot about it... So we went on Friday.

After the Islam thingy program, we went to the Bilik Kesihatan, but it's full with people, so we went back to our class and wait for them to call us.

Finally, it's our turn. I'm not afraid at 1st, cause I've gotten injection lots of times. 3 times when I'm younger : On the Hand, on the arm, on the butt. Twice in primary school : Both on arm, but different injection. Once in Secondary School, for the jaw thingy... This would be the 1st time getting my blood to be taken. xDD Kinda cool... in a way. Was a LITTLE bit excited, but because of the influence of both my friends, RH and JL, they made me feel scared.

Okay~ So among us 3, I'm the 1st 1 to go. Was calm and the nurse took my blood. A male friend of mine saw how calm I am and was shocked and said : Whoahh ~ You're so calm... I was like >>> =.=''
Okay.?

After that, went outside to wait for my friend, played with my arm a bit. As you know the blood won't dry that fast, so I went to take off the cotton and bent my elbow, the blood squirt out. xD
nyahahaha.. it looks kinda cool. I tried demonstrating it to the other male friends outside, but the blood stop squirting out. =w=''

Stayed with them for a while, only a SHORT while, I felt dizzy and wanted to go to the bench and sit down to rest. When I was walking over there, my head was spinning. SERIOUSLY, DIZZY.

Was quiet all the while, I thought : Let me rest for a while, maybe it'll be better. But I was wrong... As I sat there longer, I became more uncomfortable... My eyes were starting to become blur-er and blur-er... with very bright light, plus my head is freaking dizzy, my ears were starting to unable to hear, something like there's water blocking inside of your ears, plus, my body felt numb. Was suddenly sweating a lot and a lot with cold sweat, and I was finding it hard to breathe.

While it's happening, I thought I was either gonna to faint or die. Haaaa... cause when the nurse took my blood, she pulled the syringe and push back a little of my blood back. -.- so yea, I thought there's air bubbles in the blood she pushed back.

So, if it turns out I'll die, I panicked at 1st when I thought I'm gonna die, but then something strike my mind that, dying here right now, didn't mean anything to me. Weird right.? Usually, people will be afraid to die at this age cause they find there's so much more things they haven't accomplished. But for me, I don't know why I felt, even if I die, it won't be that much big of a deal. The stuff I want to accomplished won't happen anyway, I'm not being pessimistic, I'm just being realistic.

And, if it turns out I'll faint, I know they'll definitely call my parents. And the 1st who will freak out will be my mom. My mum is a klutz when she panicked. I won't wanna trouble anyone. Everyone I know will keep on asking How Am I... if I woke up. Everyone will try to care, I know it's good but, the way they look at me isn't caring at all... It's fear. They fear. So, I force myself to stay conscious.

I tried to talk, was staying quiet all the while cause I have no energy, I asked my friend to call the chinese nurse for assistance. She told me to sit on a sofa with a lower posture and asked my friend to find sweet for me to eat. Sat there quite a long time. Both of my friends, RH and JL was so worried. I can't help but to be more healthier.? even a little bit, that can help lifting their worries, I hope.

Then, 2 male classmates of mine came. They accompany us chatting and talking, that was nice. Class reunion should be something like this, talking about everything without any groups. Hahaha, JL even ask them to piggy-back carry me, but they suggest to princess-carry me ( -.- )  to our classroom cause I seriously can't move. I felt much more better that time, it's just that the head is still dizzy and my body is like paralyzed. Other than my primary male best friend, they are the sweetest male friend ever. They are there accompanying us, that's very sweet. Because you can't find very less friends that are not your BEST friend, to be by your side when you're not feeling well.


 Actually, I did not plan to tell my mum that I almost fainted cause I don't want her to be worried. But JL... =.='' told her. At 1st she didn't believe, after dropping JL and her sister down. Only I told her it's true. I really, seriously, thought that she'll be worried. But instead, she thought I was afraid of blood. She thought I almost faint was because of a stupid drop of blood where everybody has in them, and not because my body is actually stupidly weak and I didn't eat anything.

Well... Told myself again and again and again and again not to have hopes on family relationships. I did, not having high hopes on anything but every time when it comes to something like this, I'll have that hope that won't exist and made me fall harder each and every time.

As what the picture said. Once upon a time. Where it still seems good, but never perfect.