I don't know since when, I've got the habit of setting people up or acting about something. I seriously don't know when or why I'd do that. I've noticed this habit last year, I'm trying to change but I can't seem to get rid of this habit.
I personally can easily see through someone's stuff / feelings / thoughts when I feel like it. But sometimes I didn't mean to do it. I didn't want to know that much. Because knowing all of that hurts myself. Because knowing they're actually lying straight at ur face. Because knowing they're not even trying to tell u the truth.
It really hurts. No one might know how much I've been hurt because no one walks my path so I don't blame them. I blame myself. Sometimes I just want to shut down my feelings and just not feel at all. All of the feelings mixed together confusing me. I don't like that kind of feeling.
Sometimes I'd ask questions I knew the answer to see whether u lied to me or not. This is normal. But... what about setting people up.? Setting them up, knowing which move they will take , knowing what they're gonna say... I feel bad. It's like it's all according to my calculation.
But it isn't that bad. Because of this, I can easily understand. I can know what will happen and feel anticipated.
I've seen it all. But most of all. I can be sure that my parents taught me this.
To know what question can be ask.
To know what things should be done.
To know when actions can be done.
Most importantly, to know how to hide ur feelings well and act out normal.
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