Expectations...?

I have no idea why nowadays all my titles have a question mark behind...
nyahahahaahhaa...
I think one of the reasons is I'm not sure if I wrote the title before or not.
And it's actually kind of hard to think of a title... xD

I also found out that putting anime pictures in looks better. x3
Not so dull and all... It keeps me on reading properly and not bored...
Yes, I sometimes read back what I wrote...
More likely scheme through or something... Not really reading the whole thing one by one though.
Cause it's very troublesome.

Okay... so back to the topic. Expectations.
Yesterday I went out with my mum so some place.
Actually, I was hesitating on accompanying my mum...
But then I thought might as well go... If I really find that it's hard for me to go back there.
Then I'll just not go next time. And just attend important dates.

Many people... a.k.a adults. Every time they saw me... They'll say.. " ohhh, you've grow so big already. Last time you're so small and young. "  Then something that goes when they tell my mum about me , " 你的女儿，从以前就看起来很文静，很聪明。成绩一定很好。很温柔"  etc...

Well... Truth to be said... I ain't nothing like that. Sorry to disappoint all of you. =.=
I'm quiet in front of you guys is cause most of the times I'd prefer listening then talking.
And sometimes I'll just give comments and replies in my mind. Kind of a bad habit.. i think.

My academic isn't really that good. Haiz. My average marks sucks till no end and all...
I'm not a softie. I'm kind of dark actually... I swear a lot in my mind.. Haha... =.=''
And I curse quite amount of stranger... in my mind..
I'd kill people countless time ruthlessly in my dream and mind too.
I even sacrifice people in order to stay safe and alive in my dream. And that moment of choice, I choose to pull people and block the damage... You can say that I can kind of semi control my dream... in desperate state or something near there.

Everyone kept telling me to study smart not study hard. But how the hell do you study smart. Isn't it the same thing.? You just study and understand the damn thing and do exercises. And if you don't know how to do those exercises, means you don't understand the concept well and thus study more.

I'm just an average girl. Not good in sports, not good in academics. Not good in social and not good in expressing. I'm only good at understanding but it doesn't really help cause once you understand too many stuff... you can't able to really decide and you can't see things the same way u used to see...

I kind of suck in everything... Somewhere along suckish and good. THUS, AVERAGE.
Just an average whose life is filled with dramatic stories and related stuff...
And my only way for escape is Anime and Manga.
Game not really... cause sometimes I accidentally set a role in my character... and I kind of role play... like acting... which is not really me. So yeaaaaa...
I dunno. It's like automatically, I'd act out. WTH.
And I hate to lie. Not hate but dislike.
I get all nervous lying. But by acting... it's like a natural thing.
I'm not sure if you guys understand the difference. hahahaha..
U don't hv to understand though.

Of course everyone wants to study hard and smart to be successful in the future. But what the hell.. I'm not smart... Just drown yourself in the number of books you have to read and already read.
Just that I'm sorry I don't meet your expectations nya.. I've tried, and now I'm tired.

See that face there.? Yeaaa.. I'm tired and bored in coping up. So when I got the mood to impress you again. I'll try harder~

Thank you very much for looking that high up of me. Your thoughts are sincerely taken into the depth of my heart. Just remember that my heart has a hole and your thoughts might just slipped away someday and I won't give a shit.. But then again, Thank you so much for your encourage~ I love all your compliments. But keep it sincere, since it won't be able to irritate me that much.

THANK YOU~ <3