Long time no see ( post )

Ahahahahaha.. Yo.
It's been a very long while since I've posted something.
Exactly 4 months now.. hahahaha.. right.

It's not that I don't have things to say or things to post.
But every time it just goes back to that circle.
Since this blog is here for me to express negative thoughts. xD
or overly obsessed interest in some stuff that I don't want to spam in other social media.

But yeaaaa.. It's been really busy.
First year degree, first semester and all.
And was having trouble in grasping some subjects.
And then there's this crazy amount of tests. Urgh.

I've got 6 subjects in total for this semester.
And each subject has like AT LEAST 2 tests, 1 midterm test and exam.
And don't forget those tutorials, assignments and reports.
Argh. Just ... yea.. typical college student's lifestyle.

But no worries, I'm having fun too.
Got bunch of crazy people to support me and be wild. xD
hahahaha.. and they called me weird and random when they are too.

Sure there are some times where I couldn't keep it in.
I tried writing them down in my phone's note.
As to so I'd remember to post in the blog.

But when I read it back, I realized it's stupid and decided to delete it.
It's always like that though.
I feel them, I think about them, I drowned in the feelings.
I express them in the form of writing.
And then after some time, I read them back and always find that I'm so stupid.

Yeapppp. Always feel stupid when I express my feelings out.
Of course I've wonder if I should ever stop expressing them if I'd feel stupid all the time.
But I realized, I rather feel stupid once in a while than bottle everything up and end up a break down again.

Yea, again. Did that, done that. And it was stupid. Hahahaha.
Yeap, even more stupid than reading back.
Cause it's like you did this to yourself and you couldn't hold it anymore so basically it's your own fault.

So first semester examination ended and having a cool and free holidays.
hahahaha.. drowning myself in anime world and manga dimension.
and chasing after movies and learning japanese bit by bit.
Everything is hard. hahahaaha. cause not as enthusiastic as I was during exam period and not as hardworking and coordinate.

So.. procrastination is like my priorities during holiday. Which is really bad.
But I'm not complaining now. xD Maybe when my second semester starts. I won't know.

So~
The house chores... once I got used to it. I stopped complaining once in a while and just accepted it.
Hahahaha. I really don't give a shit anymore. I'd just clean things up and help out my mum.
Cause that's what I am suppose to do. I shouldn't care what other people do.
It's my role. And I'm doing my role well. I shouldn't and won't judge other people's role.

So~~~ That's why I'd stop complaining abt the house chores and role as a female.

Because there are more things to worry about. =)