Family..... or not.

What is Family...

There are many types of families.

But for mine, it's Blood-related family.


Right, we're only blood-related.
Each of us are closer to our friends and another side of the family than OUR family.

We don't talk to each other.
We don't greet each other.
We don't share stuff together.

Everytime I reached home, it'll be my dad. And so : " Hi, dad. " was all.
When my big brother came back. " Hi, big bro.! " silent replied me.
When my 2nd bro came back. " Hi, 2nd bro.! " totally got ignored.

But if the situation involve my mum.
Big bro's reply " En..."
2nd bro's reply " Hi, mi ( short for mummy.)

Slowly and slowly...
I started to get tired of greeting them.
So there will be always a wall , a freaking thick wall between us.

But I know they care for me.
I really do.
But I wanna be... like in stories...
To have a close relationship with your siblings that you can share with.

Everyone around me has their siblings.
They are close and they play with each other.
I envy.

once.. I saw my friend, also having 2 elder brothers.
they came and fetch her in a car with her mum.
one of the bro came down and let her go in.
their mum was driving, 3 of them sitting behind.
Her brothers snuggle her and hugs her.

She said she don't like it.
She said it's annoying.

But... I wanted it so badly for these past few years.

Well... Can't say I blame her. She has her own thoughts.
But so do I.

I really really want that....