Once upon a time...There's a little girl who likes to watch her brother plays play station games, computer games. But they never really talk. They played once in a while, very few times. She remembered how comfortable she felt beside her brothers, watching them play. Until who knows when, they started to drift further apart.
But lucky for the little girl, behind her house, a neighbour who has 4 kids, all boys. Will come and find the little to play. She really had fun playing with them. They would always seek her out to play with them despite she's just a girl. By the time now, the brothers and her stopped talking with each other completely. Stories never shared, feelings never shared, nothing is between the siblings. The only thing they had was blood that ties them together. That's the only prove that they were ever siblings.
Every time the girl reached home. No one would ever say welcome back home. Since her mother was always by her side, dad was working, brothers never really bothered to say anything. But the girl tried. Whenever they came home, she would called out " Welcome home, gor. " The first few years were difficult because they never replied. But at least it got better, now they manage to say " En. " At least that's a reply right.? I mean... They finally replied.
So... years went by and K got a girlfriend. Which is not something really surprising... everyone will get a gf or a bf sooner or later. At first she was excited. Meeting her with K. But then later that.. she got all emo and stuff.. Because apparently, she like to think stuff. A lot of stuff. Random emo stuff. Because... if he can treat his gf as good as he is being to her right now. Why can't K treat her as what a normal brother would to a sister...? If he's not having issues with girls... does that mean he has issues with her.?
Once, the girl is sick and got a huge migraine but she have to accompany both her brothers and mum to see the condo. To see my K wants to buy it or not or investment or anything, I don't know. M was there to help out K since mum don't know much. So after finish reviewing and looking around, her head was throbbing, she felt like her brain is gonna crush out. She wanted to lean against something. She saw M, she went to lean against his back. But the reaction she got was actually a "tch" and a frontal step. Obviously M doesn't want her to lean against him. Hahahaha... I wonder why did she even tried to do something like that. It won't change anything. What.? She hoped that somehow her big brother would at least let her lean against his back.? or worse, she hoped that he would actually care and asked what's wrong. Well either way. Her hope crushed. She doesn't know what to feel anymore. part of her knew something like that was going to happen but part of her hoped more that it won't be the way she thought it would.
Next, the girl's father is having a health problem so he needs to go to hospital for check up. So mum have to send dad to hospital. Which means the girl have to sit lrt to college. Sure, from a station to a station the big brother accompanied her, but they did not talked at all. Not a single word, not a single eye contact. She didn't wear her earphone and blast music into her ears because until the end, she hoped that big brother will have something to say to her. Anything. Anything at all will suffice. But nothing always go according to plan. I don't think it's a plan anymore.. More like a fantasy. At the station, the girl have to transit to another destination, but the big brother has already reached his destination. They went their own way. But before really going to her suppose route, she turned her head back and searched for her big brother, big brother actually waved to her. Like a little kid, the girl instantly lighten up and frantically waved back to her big brother. and continued her way.
Either way... The girl is still living in her fantasies... hoping one day everything would be okay. But reality is it won't. Everyone's already big enough to live their own lives. Everyone will separate soon. But somewhere deep down. She's still hoping one day, her brothers will pat her head, hug her and wish her a happy birthday without mum reminding them.
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